Catching up...or at least trying to.

Good afternoon,
  It's been awhile I know....all I can say is it's been a crazy month so far.  Guess I should get everyone caught up, kids are doing well in school.   We had allowed Shelby's boyfriend to move in with us, as his mom kicked him out of the house so we thought we could help out in some small way.   That went tragically wrong in all four quadrents!!    Things got bad with Shelby...she ran away 3 times in a 4 day span just a couple of weeks ago, after finding out that her bf was moving 90 minutes away.   (not far enough in my opinion really).

  But, after calling the police every time, listing her as missing, us not sleeping for fear that she wasn't going to be there when we woke up was stressful at best.    Finally the last time she was gone for 9 hours, and we took her to the University of Iowa hospital and had her admitted to the Child Psych unit.   Was a scary time for all of us, we just didn't know how to handle all of this.   I never thought in a million years that this is what the doctor meant 16 yrs ago when she told me that Shelby was "Precocious" and advised me to read a book called, "How to raise your spirited child"!!    OMG, I was so not prepared, as no parent really is when these things happen.

But, I must say that 1 week in the hospital has so far yielded good results.   We are cautious and guarded, looking for signs always of something going awry.    It's only been a few days since she has been at home.   I hope she never has to go through that again...or any of us for that matter.   It was not how I want to spend any more of my time in this life.  But, I will not quit on her, and I will fight with and for her.

Through all this my friends and family have been so supportive and helpful.  Praying for us, and writing to me, calling me and just sending love to my family.   The love has been felt deep within my soul and I can never repay all those who hung in there with me and read the rambling posts and notes.   I love you all.   HUGS

Each day is a new one, and each day we have opportunities to make a positive impact on people.  I choose to work on that everyday.    I hope others do as well.




‎"Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself."- Harvey Fierstein

Why can't losing weight be more fun???

I think because we don't make it fun.....so I am going to attempt fun and losing weight.  I just have to do it.   I am not happy with how I look right now and haven't for a long time.  Not that I don't love who I am and love my body no matter what size or shape I am....I honestly can say that I am at that point in my life right now.   I do love my body how it is...but....it isn't good health wise to be this weight.  I need to trim down, get more active, eat better, and I know it will affect the rest of my life.    

So now that I am allowed to move a bit more, and can do a little bit different exercises as well as just stretches, I have variety and I can hopefully get moving enough to help me lose weight faster than starving myself.