Old Habits

I have been on this new med "Wellbutrin" for a week and a half.   At first I really had no hunger but would eat because that is what I did.   Getting used to the feeling of not being hungry has been difficult for me.   But as I stepped on the scale today and being up 3 lbs....really was a wake up call.   YIKES!   Was all I could say, as I stood there on the scale first thing this morning with my mouth wide open!!!    I refuse to get one pound heavier. I vow from this day forward that I will be working as hard as I possibly can to get the weight off.  
I must listen to my body and only eat when I am hungry and not a second sooner.    I have asked J.R. to help me get a plan in place, and to stop me when I suggest ice cream or sweets in the evening.   I am not even hungry...here is where the title of this post comes into play.   Old habit of eating in the evening after supper, while watching TV!!     That habit is going to die a quick and painless death not a long drawn out one.  
Getting back in the habit of doing my PT exercises daily and even walking on the treadmill daily will be a hard habit to start, but I have to do it.   I must get into the habit of doing these things for ME!!    It will only be beneficial later in my life.  
As Garth Brooks sang,  "I'm much too young to feel this damn old"!!!

4 Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant 5or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; 6it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. 7It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. I Corinthians 13:4-7

It's all good

The last time I posted I was waiting for test results.   Got those back and he said everything was great.  No Diabetes!! (I was jumping for joy when I heard this), and my Thyroid levels are "well maintained".  So all of this is great news.    My cholesterol however was elevated slightly....*hey why wouldn't it be with all the crap I have been eating lately*   LOL   But, my "good" cholesterol was excellent!!    So another big thumbs up there.   I decided to try one of the options he talked to me about at our visit.   I started taking Wellbutrin on Saturday morning, and I don't know if it is a psychological thing or what but I tell you I felt it working after 1 day.   I was totally and utterly amazed.   First day I was a bit tired which can happen till you get used to it, due to the anxiety reducing factors it has.    It was nice, I don't feel so anxious about anything anymore.  Guess this is what I was needing.   LOL      I don't think about food all day long like I used to,  I am not even hungry actually.   I can honestly say that I have eaten because I was feeding the kids and I figured I should eat something too.    Very strange feeling for me.    I feel better since I am not stuffing my face 24/7 and feeling sick to my stomach all the time because I was overeating and overfull.    I am going to shoot for Saturday to weigh myself again and see if I have lost anything.  
I am not obsessing over food, calories etc.....but I am consciously trying to make meals that are lower in calories/ carbs/ sugars/ and fat.    So that is my update.....hope to be back with some great weight loss news by the weekend.

On another note....Shelby went on the Mission Trip w/ church this week.   She left on Saturday morning at 7am, and won't be home till Saturday evening around 5pm this weekend.    I must admit I do miss her.   We don't have a nationwide phone plan so she can't just text us or email us or even call us from her cell phone.   It is really weird not hearing her come home from work at night.  I hope she is having a great time, meeting new friends, and learning to be grateful and gracious for what she has in her life, as there are always others who have less.    I know it will impact her in some way, so I can't wait to hear all about it.  :)

 I have this week off of work and usually when you take time off the days go by fast.  Well they are not so far.   I took the kids to Marr park for a bit on Saturday, we went in the morning when it wasn't so dreadfully hot out.   Sunday we went to church and to a movie in the afternoon.  ( J.R. was working all weekend )    :(     We didn't do much on Monday, went and had lunch with J.R. at work.   Yesterday we hung out at home all day and they played outside all day.  Not sure how they do it in this heat and humidity but they did.    Today is J.R.'s day off and we are not sure what we might do today, but I hope we can get out of the house for awhile today and maybe go for a walk or something.  
So like the title says...."It's all good"!!  


4 Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant 5or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; 6it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. 7It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. I Corinthians 13:4-7

Waiting....

I went to the doctor today and had blood drawn after fasting all night.   He checked my urine, gave me a quick once over, feeling my abdomen etc....no sugar was found in my urine so that was good news.   Now to wait a couple of days till the bloodwork comes back.    He doesn't think I am pre-diabetic but not ruling it out completely.    This could all be Thyroid related.   Gaining weight could have thrown my levels off some, hence the other symptoms.   I also talked to him about my "all the time" hunger.   I just want to eat and I love to eat.   So once the blood work is in...we will discuss what direction I want to go from there to lose some weight.  There are a couple of options, 3 actually that he wrote down.   I say a couple because one of them I just know I can't do.   It is a drug called Alli...it used to be prescription Xenacal or something like that.    Well it takes the fat that you have eaten and gets rid of it.   (that is putting it nicely).    SO if you eat too much fat, you could spend quite a bit of time with the Tidy bowl man!!   *wink, wink*  if ya know what I mean?   LOL
That is just something I can't do.    But, for right now, I wait.   Could be the end of the week before I know anything.   So life moves forward.  


4 Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant 5or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; 6it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. 7It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. I Corinthians 13:4-7