Working it

Day 2 of eating Low Carb and I am feeling good so far.   Thank God for Sugar Free Jello!!  Really helped my sweet craving after supper last night.   I am not really sitting down to a "meal" per say, but I am snacking on meat that I have precooked in the fridge.   Being prepared is a big part of success.    I never thought I would come back to LC.   But it worked before.   As I tried to explain to J.R. yesterday, I need to see results faster in order to stay committed to eating that way for an extended period of time.   It's just how I am wired I guess.  

I peed alot yesterday and last night, I think I was up like 4 or 5 times.   Didn't really sleep much at all, but felt okay when I got up this morning, not quite so much dreading getting out of bed.   I go to work tomorrow and I am prepared!!   I will pack a few things I can snack on while I am there for the 4.5 hours.  

Big news, I finally took the leap and I am doing an online class to become a Pharmacy Tech!!   Hopefully by mid summer I will be confident enough to take and pass the certification test.   I hope to be able to have a job as a tech by the time the kids go back to school late August!!  

Hopefully I will have lost a bunch of weight and my back will be much better and stronger by that time so I can work full time or as close to it as possible, and J.R. can cut back on some of his hours.   I know I won't make as much as he does, but he deserves to not have to work so much.   :)

What's new??

I don't know if anyone even reads my blog or not....but I must write in it occasionally as things come up.   If you have read any of my blog, it is plain to see that I struggle often with my weight.   I struggle with sticking to a plan, I get defeated and quit quite often.    But then I try again, and again.   I don't know what the right thing to do is anymore.   I wish I had a magic answer.  I wish the claims of wonderfully simple, fast, effective weight loss were true.    I know I am not alone in my fight, my struggle, my anxieties.....but sometimes I feel soooo alone.   I feel defeated and broken.   Why can't I just stick to something, why can't I give up the things I know will put weight on me?    Why does my body fight me every step of the way?    Who knows really.    I have often said I don't want to be skinny, I really honestly can say I do not want to be super thin.   I would like to definitely be A LOT thinner than I am now.    I feel sluggish, cranky, and my body hurts all over.  I know it is from the weight.   I have dodged alot of the health issues associated with weight....so far!!    I no longer wish to rely on pure luck to keep me away from those anymore.   

Yes....you guessed it....new plan, new road, new journey.   I guess it isn't a new journey, and I have been down this road before.    The way I see it, is.....if I give up completely I am as good as dead !   But, if I keep on trying I have to hit on something one of these times right?    

I need to lose 100 lbs.  There is no question about that.   

I have to get in the habit of blogging daily about how I am feeling, what I am doing, what is working, and what isn't.    

I bought a journal to write in as well, that I can jot down feelings thoughts etc, as I get them.  I will be putting it in my purse and no matter where I am, I can jot down things I think of.    I can always transpose them here in my online blog as well.  

So once again......off to the races.   I want to be healthy, I want to be pain free, I want to move more freely and have more energy and life in me for my kids and J.R.!!     I want to be happy in ALL aspects of my life.   

I want to LOVE myself again!! 

So the plan is to get rid of carbs and sugars as much as possible.  Lean meats, veggies, water, tea, coffee and the occasional Vodka tonic w/ lime will be what I ingest.    KISS  (Keep It Simple Stupid) will be my motto.   I may not cook extravagant meals anymore, it might be sandwiches or salads for dinner...but really I have to do this.   I can't go crazy like I always do, trying so hard to change things up and make them more than just easy meals.   Stress reduction in that arena will go a long way I just know it.   

Elizabeth

On Sunday afternoon, approximately 5pm.  Elizabeth (my youngest child) dove for a frisbee thrown by her older brother Ryan.   That dive will go down in the memory album because she fractured her elbow doing that dive.  OUCH!!!

I took her to the ER here in town and after examining 5 different x-rays.  The conclusion was made that she broke her elbow and that we had to transport her to the University of Iowa hospital ER to have the Orthopedic docs fix it.  No food or drink in case they have to operate.   YIKES!!  I was thinking to myself, "there are no bones protruding anywhere...what has happened to my poor little girl"!!    We had no idea what to expect or what they would do when we got there.   We were informed that elbow fractures often have to be surgically set.  but after looking at her x-rays, hers was fractured in what they said was, "the good way".  LOL
So no surgery to set it, but she was in so much pain, they gave her some morphine which took the edge off a bit. The anxiety of it all I think excaserbated her pain levels.   After attempting to start casting her arm, she was so upset that they just decided to go ahead and put her under light sedation just to cast it.   She did awesome!!  She woke up and it was done.   She was pleasantly surprised!!  
It was a long night but she has a cast and is doing pretty good in my estimation.  Considering she has never broken anything before, she is a tough cookie!!   So proud of her.

We go back again on Monday, which will make it 1 week after the break.  Not sure what they will do, but hopefully it won't be too traumatic for her.  

I will post pics as soon as I get them uploaded from my phone.  :)